emo day...

In the past i always think that the rich ppl is good..
but just now i go to a rich ppl house..
i found that im wrong..
bcos althought the house is big..
but is empty..
so quite..
and when u rich..
u will buy many things..
then the house will bcome more messy..
i like that house bcos very clean..
but too big shows that more quite..

don know y..
recently i think that im going to die..
sometimes i will feel unwell..
when unwell i will think that im going to leave..
i scared that feeling..
i scared i will leave..
i cant bear..
so no matter wat..
i will treasure all the things i have now..
i don want regret when leaving this world..
wat is the feel of die??
if i reali die..
will someone sad for me??
i think other than my family..
no more d ba..

im admit that im not a good person..
to friends,to bf,to anyone..
im very failure..
so..
just leave it..
mayb leaving is the best solution..
i will treasure every days..
treat every day is my last days..
so all my dear my friends..
don be sad when im leave..
im not worth it..
just leave it..
i wont blame u all de..

i want gambateh with my life..
give my family a good life..
so be patient ya my dear family..